Good day everyone,
I am here to write a small blog entry today and it has been a while since I’ve posted so I figured today would be the best time. As you can tell from the title of this blog entry I am officially done with the Health Science Center’s Eating Disorder outpatient program, and I am far from being a fully recovered Woman from these Eating Disorders that have taken so much away from me.
Not everyday is smiles and sunshine, and slips are bound to happen because it is a part of recovering. Even with certain behaviors I have allowed to happen I never let it bring me down, because I know this is normal and at age 27 and suffering with this for so many years, I know I don’t want it around anymore. Even though I am done the treatment groups at the hospital I will still be having weekly meetings with certain therapists and doctors that are involved in the ED Treatment at the Health Science Center.
For a while I was doing so well that I didn’t act on any urges and had no behaviors for a good 19 days but somehow I have had a few slips here and there, but i never let it ruin the rest of my day and I do the next healthiest option which is to move on and continue doing my Mechanical eating, as well use all the coping skills I was able to obtain over the 10 weeks I was in the Outpatient treatment.
I try everyday to stay as positive and happy as I can, no matter what is going on around me, and sometimes that is a lot harder than we might have thought, but it doesn’t stop me from fighting everyday, even if I had tripped and fell I will always get back up and do what I know is the healthiest option.
This week alone has been incredibly hard for me as I was assaulted on Wednesday night and I did try cover it up, with feelings of “I am okay” but of course I am in some sort of pain revolving that but I do plan on dealing with those emotions in a healthier way when I can see my doctors on August 24th. Life is full of surprises, good & bad but to let the bad overtake the good is not what I need, and maybe not what any of us need.
Cheers to being done with the hospital groups in my city , but also lets cheers to the recovery I have ahead of me, and I will beat this.